Unborn Child

I only got to see you once, and that was on a computer screen..
I heard your heart beat, it was so strong..
So what went wrong??? Why were you taken from us??

I feel robbed, confused, hurt, angry..
Robbed, from being your mother..
Confused, because just last two weeks ago I found out about you..
Hurt, because I can never hold you in my arms..
Angry, because my girls will never get to know you..

I'm trying to be strong for my girls and husband, but this is hard..
Hard for me to hold back these tears.. but I have to so my girls don't see me upset
Hard for me to just move on.. because it's not that easy
Hard for me to accept the fact that you're not going to be joining our us November 2015

Does this get any easier??
The emotional and physically pain.. I can't even explain
My heart hurts.. wondering about who you would of became.. how you would of looked.. acted..
My body hurts.. the pain of you coming out.. I wish things would of been different
I wish you were still here..in my belly..growing..getting ready to meet your big sisters

Everyone is telling me things happen for a reason, though I do believe that, I just cant comprehend why this is happening to me..to us..

Everyone is telling me not to blame myself, but who else is there to blame if not myself!! I hate myself for not protecting you like I should have. What did I do wrong?? Were you not ready to meet us just yet?? Or were we not ready to meet you??

I will always love you..
I will always remember you..
My unborn child..