Nurturing MYSELF

I feel like I should take care of myself more, but I never have the time. With two toddlers that need my undivided attention 24/7 and a husband, how can I manage to also take care of myself? There are nights where I don’t shower because I’m nervous Annabelle might wake up. I haven’t cut my toe nails in let’s say a little over a month. Yes I know that’s a long time, they feel like claws! I sometimes forget to put deodorant on because my one year old is needing something.

I would like to treat myself gentler this year. It can be to take a nice bath once a week, alone. So I can relax and enjoy some quiet time. This will most likely happen once my girls are asleep. Another can be to get a pedicures. I use to get a pedicure every two weeks, so I’ll be lucky if I get one at least once a month. Pretty toes makes me feel pretty. Even going on walks helps me nurture myself. I told my husband I would like to take little family walks after dinner at least every other day. We went with our girls, Jade on her scooter and Annabelle on her bike. It was very nice, calming.  

I see my living room filled with toys, and laughter coming from my toddlers, excited to see momma home. That is why it’s hard for me to have some “me” time. My one year old is breastfed so it’s hard to go anywhere without her. I feel like if I leave them for a few hours, I would enjoy it. Am I harsh for feeling this? I think any mom would think that though. I am going to start to take better care of myself.

How can I manage to take care of my two girls and husband but cannot manage to care for myself. I am going to create a routine for myself, which I feel will help me be more relaxed and be less overwhelmed.

For my mind, I want to do activities that help me feel alive. Such as jogging, it makes me feel free. I can roam free with no one to bug me. I can stop worry about everything and everyone. I am going to take breaks from my girls, listen to calming music, and have fun. Breaks five minutes here and there, which I feel will help me yell less. Dance parties with my girls, while listening to music and having fun doing it.

For my body, I am going to start exercising regularly. I am going to have a sleeping schedule. I am going to eat nourishing foods and increase my water intake. I am also going to start loving my body again. My body does not define me. My body is amazing. I gave birth to two beautiful girls via C-section. I love my stretch marks and I wear them proud. In my heart I know the one way I can nurture my body most this year is to love it.

For my heart and soul, I am going to pray more. I am going to forgive those that do or do not deserve it. I am going to find purpose and meaning to my life.  I want to accomplish peace, serenity, control, happiness, and to be a better person than yesterday.